depressed and lonely
hopeless and scared
i was beginning to think
that God didn't care
thoughts, thoughts
they run through my head
negative thoughts
of me being dead
i want to quit
to give up and die
as i sit in my bed
i'm wondering why?
why does this happen?
how do i get here?
my body's consumed
and frozen in fear.
in my strength alone
i can't put up a fight
only with God's
great power and might!
to those who are weary
to those who are broke
to those who are burdened
He's given his yoke
to Him be the glory
through the sadness and pain
in all of this darkness
let God's goodness reign
it's time to release and
trust God's helping hand
with God's power alone
will i be able to stand.
i lay down before You
my Savior, my King
i praise Your Great Name
as i've chosen to sing.
Reference Scriptures:
Zephaniah 3:14-20 14
Sing, Daughter Zion; shout aloud, Israel! Be glad and rejoice with all your heart, Daughter Jerusalem! 15 The LORD has taken away your punishment, he has turned back your enemy. The LORD, the King of Israel, is with you; never again will you fear any harm. 16 On that day they will say to Jerusalem, “Do not fear, Zion; do not let your hands hang limp. 17 The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”
18 “I will remove from you all who mourn over the loss of your appointed festivals, which is a burden and reproach for you. 19 At that time I will deal with all who oppressed you. I will rescue the lame; I will gather the exiles. I will give them praise and honor in every land where they have suffered shame. 20 At that time I will gather you; at that time I will bring you home. I will give you honor and praise among all the peoples of the earth when I restore your fortunes[e] before your very eyes,” says the LORD.
Matthew 11:28
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
I am choosing to sing, no matter how much it hurts. I will praise God through the pain.
After this prayer to God, I have realized that i am not 'feeling' better. i think that's what makes it so real. the fact that i'm not 'feeling' better. God doesn't want me to just 'feel' better. God wants me to 'know' HIM better. God wants me to grow deeper in relationship with Him and know His character better. He doesn't really care if it comes through pain, as long as I get the point. After speaking with Lea today, I am remembering that God is good. God is hope. God is love. God is strength and power. God always provides a way out of sin cycles. God is, was, and will be, GOD. Forever, regardless of how I perceive Him to be. This, I must remember in my times of doubt.
hopeless and scared
i was beginning to think
that God didn't care
thoughts, thoughts
they run through my head
negative thoughts
of me being dead
i want to quit
to give up and die
as i sit in my bed
i'm wondering why?
why does this happen?
how do i get here?
my body's consumed
and frozen in fear.
in my strength alone
i can't put up a fight
only with God's
great power and might!
to those who are weary
to those who are broke
to those who are burdened
He's given his yoke
to Him be the glory
through the sadness and pain
in all of this darkness
let God's goodness reign
it's time to release and
trust God's helping hand
with God's power alone
will i be able to stand.
i lay down before You
my Savior, my King
i praise Your Great Name
as i've chosen to sing.
Reference Scriptures:
Zephaniah 3:14-20 14
Sing, Daughter Zion; shout aloud, Israel! Be glad and rejoice with all your heart, Daughter Jerusalem! 15 The LORD has taken away your punishment, he has turned back your enemy. The LORD, the King of Israel, is with you; never again will you fear any harm. 16 On that day they will say to Jerusalem, “Do not fear, Zion; do not let your hands hang limp. 17 The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”
18 “I will remove from you all who mourn over the loss of your appointed festivals, which is a burden and reproach for you. 19 At that time I will deal with all who oppressed you. I will rescue the lame; I will gather the exiles. I will give them praise and honor in every land where they have suffered shame. 20 At that time I will gather you; at that time I will bring you home. I will give you honor and praise among all the peoples of the earth when I restore your fortunes[e] before your very eyes,” says the LORD.
Matthew 11:28
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
I am choosing to sing, no matter how much it hurts. I will praise God through the pain.
After this prayer to God, I have realized that i am not 'feeling' better. i think that's what makes it so real. the fact that i'm not 'feeling' better. God doesn't want me to just 'feel' better. God wants me to 'know' HIM better. God wants me to grow deeper in relationship with Him and know His character better. He doesn't really care if it comes through pain, as long as I get the point. After speaking with Lea today, I am remembering that God is good. God is hope. God is love. God is strength and power. God always provides a way out of sin cycles. God is, was, and will be, GOD. Forever, regardless of how I perceive Him to be. This, I must remember in my times of doubt.
