Poem: Breathe In, Breathe Out

Here's a poem I wrote when I was at MC about the mask I wear...

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Breathe in, breathe out
Take down the wall
Breathe in, breathe out
Get ready to fall.
You sit there in silence,
Your thoughts racing inside
Alone in your head
With nowhere to hide.
Breathe in, breathe out
You’re starting to shake
Breathe in, breathe out
You’re going to break.
Hold it all in,
Don’t let yourself cry,
If you feel your emotion
You’re going to die.
You’re worthless, you’re ugly
You’re fat, and you’re mean,
You’re dirty and sinful
Your body’s unclean.
Breathe in, breathe out
Am I dreaming? You ask,
Breathe in, breathe out
Time to take off your mask.
It doesn’t feel safe,
So you put it back on,
You’re hoping this feeling
Will soon be gone.
Breathe in, breathe out
Put on your smile
Breathe in, breathe out
Just for a while.
Laugh and tell jokes
Your pain is not there
Use your sarcasm
And pretend not to care.
Breathe in, breathe out
Pull that mask tight
Breathe in, breathe out
Continue to fight.
When you’re all alone
As you lay your head down,
Release these emotions
But be sure not to drown.
Breathe in, breathe out
And as you awake,
Breathe in, breathe out
Don’t make a mistake,
The mask of protection,
Place it back on your face,
While knowing beneath it
You’re such a disgrace!